Afraid...

Is it wrong to be afraid? I don't think so. People have their fears. Eg. the dark, their parents, their past, their friends, their families, etc. Is it a crime to be afraid of someone or something? Guess what, I am afraid of ghosts. You may think that I am afraid of nothing, but you are SO wrong. Cockroaches, ghosts, the dark, being alone, I am afraid too. Nothing is unable to scare me (except for a few people...). If you know of anything that can help me, please tell me! Please! I don't wanna live in this shadow forever!
I am dead. Dead. Dead!!! I did something that I was not supposed to do. Especially during exam time. Okay, don't think of the negative thoughts. I've done something that is positive to me but not really all that negative to you. But still, I am dead! I promised not to do that but I did it! I am dead, DEAD!!! Can somebody help me with this? Even though you don't know what the heck this is? Please? Anybody can help besides the boys... Really... ...
I am dying!!! I deproved in my exams and alot!!! Previously, I had 332.3 for my overall SA1 exmas, but now, I dropped to 325! Worse, I lost to Andrew by just 1 mark! Isn't that incredibly not good? Huh? Tell me!!! I am gonna work hard by getting an A for my Science and three A* for my other subjects. If I can't get above my target, I won't be able to get to Dunman High!!! Work hard and 加油! Go people!!!
Just now, during supplementary, my heart almost jumped out from my mouth! Really! I mean it! It was awfully painful that my heart was like pounding hardly and badly. It was so fast and I thought I was gonna die! So painful. I think that should be going for a health check-up soon to find out if I have a blocked artery or I got cancer or something. I am really worried! I don't wanna lose you guys and I haven't even fulfiled my dreams and wishes yet! I hope that I won't die so soon! I haven't even been to the places I want to go and done the things I want to do! I don't want to leave everyone and be the first one to leave the school!!! I really need a health check-up. Hope I'm okay...
I have to go now, see you guys tomorrow, bye!